Me and Me

This is the deal and this is what I will do. I made it here, I made it up to this point. I will stay focused, I will stay fabulous, I will stay true, I will stay honest. I will stay sane, I will self correct, I will self repair, I will make restitution where required. I will use all my mental energy to do right and be positive. I will take care of self. I will be the primary guardian of this fabulous human being. I will dig deep to the deepest place and draw wealth. I will not listen to the noise of the market. I will not draw my sword for fun or show. I will not lean when I ought to lead. I will not indulge in aimless fight and discussion, I will kick every toxic person out of sight. I will kick every confusing, deceptive, manipulative, draining person out.

I will be the true guardian of my soul. I will take care of my spirit, of my mind, of my body, I will respect every part of my journey. I will regenerate, I will make right decisions in life, I will make the right and best decision about My ward. I will help My ward to shine and be the best possible human being. I will make the best possible decisions about the trial, I will do that which is right and fair. I will prioritise that which I am made a custodian of. I will love and care for my body. I will break through, I will break forth, I will crack that ceiling, I will shoot out, I will burst out, I will move into the next level. I will not falter, I will not break or crack under this weight. I will run my race. Me and me will do this, Mentally indestructible! I will not use my precious mental energy to wallow in self pity, recrimination, trying to understand the ununderstandable, regret, revenge, navel gazing, explaining my side of the story, begging for support from those that can never support me.

My brain will work for me, my mind will work for me, my emotions will work for me, my spirit will work for me, I will excel, I will be a blessing to my generation, I will impact this world, my giftings will touch people, I will touch humanity, I will leave this planet a better place than when I arrive. I call forth wisdom, I call forth grace, I call forth mental agility. I am not doing anxiety, I am not doing depression, I am not doing insomnia, I am not doing addiction, I am not doing co-dependence, I am not doing stupidity, I am not doing evil, I am not doing weakness, I am are not doing wrong, I am not doing worrying, I am not doing despondency, I am not doing lethargy, I am not doing bad eating, I am not doing anger, I am not doing fear, I am not doing confusion, I am not doing limerence, crazy attachment or toxic relationship, I am not doing pity party, I am not doing misery gathering, I am not doing complaining, criticising and gossiping, I am not doing self battering, I am not doing self deprecation or self fault finding. I am digging, breaking, slicing, smashing, bursting, disrupting, kicking, cutting and then building and building and repairing and repairing and shining forth.

I have me, I have my back, in me there will always be room for me, a soft and gentle landing spot, there will be comfort, succour, acceptance, nurturing, hearing ear, loving heart, warm embrace, validation and total acceptance. I always make time for me. I can control that, I got me as long as I have my cognition, my emotional and mental wherewithal. I am clear, sure, certain and intentional about me. Me first, my favourite person being me, I am not harsh or unkind to me. I am not avoiding, dismissive, disapproving, discounting, disappointing, abandoning, neglecting to me. I fight for me, I defend me. I am delighted to see me. I nurture me, I nourish me, I adorn me, I listen to me. I love me, this is my promise to me.

Thank you for this madness. I will use it as a building stone.