With my two hands I am doing it, not literally of course, but with my sweat, blood, effort, commitment. I am building my house, I am focused to make it just the way I want it. I am unwavering in the pursuit. I dreamt about the house I want, every part of it, every single feature, I planned it to the T, a functional house that will serve me and cater to all my needs, an entertainment space, a motivating and inspirational environment, a peaceful, restful, harmonious house. I am truly building my house and I am excited about what I am building.
I started out living with my parents, in the house they built, it was built to suit them and their needs and what they consider that we will need. Actually they didn’t built the house, it was the house they could get, that we all lived in. Since leaving home, I have lived in all kinds of direct places. I have lived with friends, I have shared a single bed in a poky tiny room with a big person, I have been squeezed and crushed to the wall, when I was homeless I have squatted with people, sometimes treated nicely other times with disdain, I have lived on the street and slept in my car for months. I have rented my own place, paid rent for a room in a house and shared communal areas with people I know not, people whose ways were not my way. I have lived in big houses, I have lived in nice houses where I never felt at home. I have lodged in palatial places and enjoyed luxuries and opulence for short periods, but I never felt at home as these were not my house.
Today my face is set as a flint as I build my house. I have carefully and purposely chosen the plot and the neighbourhood. It has to be right for me and what I am called and ordained to do, I will not just live anywhere any more. I am intentional about where I live. It has been a lot of effort, hard work, stretching to get the means to buy the plot, I was not born rich, there has been no hand outs or pass down, it has been mental, physical and spiritual committment. Self discipline has been my watch word. Grace and favour has been my companion. But I am building my house. I can not be distracted, I must not be, detractors are not allowed. Laser focus I am, as I build my house. Everything I have been through I put behind me, no more drama, my mistakes are behind, shame, guilt, fear, confusion, disillusionment, depression are all behind, I am just building my house. I do not yet have all I need to build my house, but I have what I need to start, with the foundation laid, brick by brick I consciously build.
It is messy and dirty, it is noisy and exhausting. I am very tired but I am still building my house. It is slow and difficult but I am not stopping, I have a vision of the house I am building and I will not stop until it is built, yes I will take a break as needed but I will keep building my house, brick by brick I will build.
I have been on every conference, seminar, talk on self build, I have read every book, magazine, journal, leaflet that helps me to build the right house. I joined every group, networking event, I am following everyone that has built a great house for themselves. I am on social media for one and one purpose alone, to learn how to build a great house that will serve me and everyone I am called to reach. Slowly but surely my house is coming together, just as it should as I am purposeful about it.
My house is my life! My life is my house, your life is your house, build that life as you want it to be. We all have to be purposeful, determined and focused about the life we want, it does not just happen by default. It is time we stop living in other people’s houses, living their lives, emulating their lifestyles, doing what they do, confused and bewildered, lacking energy and purpose, going with the flow, nobody builds a house on a whim or in the flow of purposelessness. A house worth living in is a house built with intention.
My life, my house, built for purpose with intention, no man will deter me including myself. What a beautiful house I built!
Beautiful Ivory 