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… I miss Daddy, Mummy, My Sisters, all that are gone and some that are living, I miss the dead, I miss the living, I miss the one that I love but is not available (emotionally or physically), I miss things as they were but are no longer, I miss the passion at the beginning of a relationship, I miss the highs, I miss the dreams, the childlike excitement, I miss the freshness of newness, I miss the company, the people that were once already, I miss the koinonia, I miss the time of innocence, I miss the thriving times, I miss the jokes, the laughter, I miss the happiness in the air, the joy on the heart, I miss the good food, I miss the aroma, I miss falling in love, I miss romance, I miss sex, I miss orgasm.
I miss spiritual connection, I miss believing in God, I miss trusting, I miss the unquestionable confidence in bible and the fellowship of the brethren.
I miss food, I miss sweet, I miss sugar, sugar! Sugar! Everything with sugar in it. I miss my highs, those things that lift me up. I miss all that is gone and is not here. I miss the dreams that never came to pass. I miss not having a dream, I miss not feeling the excitement of having a dream. I miss the taste of life, I miss the taste of living.
My inability to connect with life as it is now is what is truly missing. All I need is in the now and here. What I truly miss in all those things above is here. It’s how I see the things, people, situation that exist now that is flawed, but now is good, truly good, now is exciting, here is brilliant. Love is present, joy is here and happiness is in the air. None of them are far, right inside us is a wealth of experience, of positivity and the pain of yesterday has been dealt with.
It’s all in the engagement and interactive with now. It’s in the mix, all the ingredients are here.
The same happiness and joy we experienced yesterday is here today. What we missed from yesterday is available today. It is just stored differently. It is saved in a different files. It is all about finding it today, not reminiscing for yesterday or longing for tomorrow.
All that we truly miss is here, now today, we just need to seek and find it.
Beautiful Ivory 