It Lingers

… we know the truth, we have knowledge, we have understanding of the matter, of the issues, yet we sometimes continue to operate in the untruth, we see ourselves, we see our behaviour, we see our manners and it is contrary, contradictory to that which we know and embrace in our mind. We seem too powerless to push ourselves into the truth we know, we move towards it but at a speed that can be incredibly frustrating, it truly lingers, the permeation of the truth into our conduct is a process. While we want to violently uproot, jerk or yank ourselves immediately from our untruth and steadfastly plant ourselves in the lush grounds of truth and all that furthers growth, it rarely happens in that manner, it just lingers, slowly dragging its feet in the manner of one that is in no hurry to get any where.

We know it, we have read enough of it, we have listen to enough talk, we have even been the ones giving the talk, we know we should eat heathy, exercise and do what is right for our bodies and health, yet we struggle and stagger towards this goal. The truth we know takes time to become part of our repertoire.

Race issue is a big one for me, we know that melanin accounts for the difference of the shade of the skin and that one race is not superior or inferior to another. Some don’t know it and persist in their ignorance but others do. Yet amongst those with knowledge, we still find them relating in manner that is contradictory to these knowledge. The black man, while not making full obeisance is still deferring unnecessarily to the white man and grinning sheepishly in his presence. The white person why not outrightly lording it over the black person is still swaying around with a chip on his shoulder, looking down at the black person from the tip of his nose like he owns the world and is the Lord of the manor. Both goes home and ponder his ridiculous behaviour or at least the black man does, as he is the one in the disadvantage behaviour cycle. He resolves to brace up and stand straight, yet he finds himself slopping and slouching every now and them. It does linger!

All we can do is persist in that which we know and understand, one day our grace will be perfected and there will be no sloppiness or slouching, we will stand tall and straight, chest out, shoulders square, all sucked and tucked in and that will be day when it is over.

In the meantime, it lingers!