… to get home, I had to go through murky waters, I walked some rough terrain. I lodged at dodgy places, I squatted with undesirables. Some days without food, water or sleep but I kept going. Others days I survived on scraps and dirty water. I kissed a number of frogs in my search but I kept in mind that my prince exist. I looked a sight, my clothes were torn and tattered but I did not give up the dream. My shoes were full of holes, water, dust and insects found their way in, but I kept going. From time to time I lost hope, I despised of life and longed for death. As I start to sink down and deep, an invisible hand lifted me up and gave me enough strength to take the next step and the next and next and so it goes.
Yet, I had to keep up an appearance, I had to look the part. On top of my dirty face, I applied my make up and plastered a fake smile. I covered up my bleeding heart the best I know, looking for home, in that city where the sat nav couldn’t find. The only navigation system that could do the job was my heart. With intensity I listen closely to my heart as I wade through the deep and terrifying forest. My heart beating fast at the horrifying sounds that surrounded me. But I kept going, I must find home, I must get home, I must put my head on my pillow at home.
Few understood my journey, even less understood why I couldn’t not make home wherever I found myself. Some condemned me, I was called names, a serial squatter, an unfaithful lodger, an irresponsible and unreliable sojourner, a promiscuous tenant etc. Few understood what I was about, what I was seeking, where I was going, but I was not deterred. My heart seek for a city, a home where the light never goes out, an enduring city.
With each waking day, the hope of getting home became dimmer and dimmer. Without warning I felt a nudge in my heart, like the three wise men I saw a tiny glimpse of the star in the far far skies and I knew I was getting close.
The journey was very rough, I went through some murky waters, but it is so good to be home!
Home is where the heart is!
Beautiful Ivory 